Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher

Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher
Release Date: October 18, 2007
Pages: 288
Rating:💜💜💜💜💜
Buy it: Amazon | Book Depository

Clay Jensen returns home to find a strange package with his name on it. Inside he discovers several cassette tapes recorded by Hannah Baker – his classmate and first love – who committed suicide two weeks earlier. Hannah's voice explains there are thirteen reasons why she killed herself. Clay is one of them. If he listens, he'll find out why. All through the night, Clay keeps listening – and what he discovers changes his life... forever.

I was writing this review when I started reading other people's thoughts and feelings about the book. 

Now, instead of a review, I'm going to write a ramble. I'm not going to explain why I gave this book 5 stars.

Instead, I'm going to take up this space to talk about suicide.

*this is not a pity post. seriously. I am not looking for attention, just trying to express my opinions*

I'm going to leave a series of reviews throughout this post that I think you should go read. I enjoyed reading all of them, and I think they all raised valid points.

Review 1 : Emma

This book was always going to get hate. It deals with suicide, rape, abuse and so many other sensitive topics. However, I think the main hate came from the Netflix show.

That show. I have no words to describe how much I hate it. I started watching but gave up because it was too hard to get through. 

I refused to watch it until I read this book because I'd heard how graphic and insensitive it was. But man, I did not expect it to be that bad.

Yes, the book is graphic. The book goes into details. But the book does not carry on when it is not necessary. The TV show does. 

When I was watching the TV show, my main problem was that they dramatised the book. They added more drama, more action, more things to go wrong. 

You know what I would have liked. An adaptation that stuck to the book. An adaptation that didn't add a court case, a lets-hate-Clay-club and a million other things.

An adaptation that didn't make the suicide more dramatic.

Can you believe that?

They made a suicide more dramatic. They literally  looked at a young girl killing herself and thought 'you know what this needs? Drama!' 

Review 2: Another Emma

I loved this review. I really did. It says everything I want to say about this book.

I think the TV show did this book wrong. If the TV show had never existed this book could have been a suicide story that had no stigma around. But because Hollywood can't leave anything alone, they ruined this book as well.

Onto the most important part of this review.

Do not read this book if you are depressed or suicidal. I've been struggling with depressive tendencies for 8 years now, and this book almost sent me to a darker place. (And when I say depressive tendencies, I don't just mean pretty-girl-crying-in-bathroom. I mean can't look in mirrors, hiding at home and skipping school, self-harming, pulling away from friends). This book is a suicide success story (how sick is that to say) and if you might relapse don't read it.

If you have suffered from abuse of any sort please get help. Seriously. Don't hide or wait another day because things might be better. Get help now. I know the media makes talking out hard these days, and you don't know what consequences might occur but you need to speak out. Here are some places to go:
* www.thehotline.org
*1-800-799-7233

If you are having suicidal thoughts, talk to someone. Your mum, dad, auntie, uncle, grandparents, friends, neighbours, teacher, counsellor, boss, even your cat. Talk it out might seem hard at first, but eventually it will get easier and they will help you through it. Even if it is just talking to your pet or your reflection, talking it through helps your brain put everything in order and try to come up with a solution. If you don't want to talk to someone you know here are some links:
*List of international suicide hotlines
*http://afsp.org

If you want to self harm, do something to take your mind off it. I have so many tips and tricks that I do, but every person is different. For example, I can't listen to music through headphones when trying to resist the urge, but that's what helps my friend. However here is list of things that might help:
*visit www.harmless.org.uk 
*talk to a friend
*listen to music
*do something with your hands that requires attention (tidy your room!)
*hold an ice cube, or rub it on the area you self-harm on
*get out and go to a local cafe/ Starbucks/ Costa

Final bit of advice: message me on Instagram. I have a mental health Instagram which I use to document my recovery. I'm literally always on it, so please, if worst comes to worst (or you just want to chat, message me on it.) I'll leave a link here.

So there we go. Good book, bad TV show, lots of advice. I'll see you next time!

Rapid Book Tag

A quick book tag this week because my life is a little hectic and I thought this tag would reflect the general tone of my life at the moment. Definitely not because I completely forgot I hadn't written a post yet so I'm doing this last minute instead of homework. 

Nope.

Anyways...onto the tag!

E-Book or Physical Book?

Physical 100%. I can't concentrate on e-books because I get distracted very easily and like being able to see what is on the next page before I read it.

Paperback or Hardback?

I want to be able to afford hardback books but I don't have the money for it. Plus paperback books take up less space which means I can justify buying more of them.

Online or in-store book shopping?

About 70% of my books are from charity shops so I don't really lean one way or the other. If I had to I would chose in-store book shopping because it feels more personal and the book seems to have more love in it.

Trilogies or series?

Trilogies. I get bored when reading series, or need a break from the world which leads to me putting down the book and then forgetting what happened, but that never happens with trilogies.

Heroes or villains? 

Morally, heroes. For fun factor, villains. Heroes are all a bit samey these days whereas all the villains I've read about are different, making the story more interesting.

A book you want everyone to read?

The Sign of One trilogy because it deserves more love than it gets.

Recommend an underrated book

I guess I did this in the last question but another underrated book that deserves more love is Listen to the Nightingale by Rumer Godden. It is a beautiful book that only has 126 ratings on Goodreads. Go read it! 

Last book you finished

Marly's Ghost by David Levithan. Would not recommend.

Last book you bought

The Snow Child by Eowyn Ivey

Weirdest thing you've used as a bookmark

Not the weirdest thing but I am currently using the price tag from my skirt.

Used books: yes or no?

YES! 

As I've already said, about 70% of my books are second-hand and they're still in good quality. I love seeing what is left in the books from the previous owner.

Top 3 favourite genres?

Historical fiction, dystopian, realistic novels.

Borrow or buy?

Borrow. 

If I'm not sure about a book I always borrow it from the library instead of buying it, just to be on the safe side.

Characters or plot?

Characters because they drive the plot, so bad characters = bad plot.

Long or short books?

At the moment, short. Over 300 pages is a struggle for me currently.

Long or short chapters?

Short! 

I motivate myself to do homework by letting myself read a chapter between tasks and if the chapters are too long I end up not doing my homework.

Name the first 3 books you can think of

The Handmaid's Tale by Margaret Atwood

Peter Pan by J.M.Barrie 

Secrets for the Mad by dodie

Books that make you cry or laugh?

Can I choose both? I love books that make me feel devastated about the characters misfortunes on one page and laughing about how they deal with their troubles the next page.

Our world or fictional worlds?

Both. Depends on the world.

Audiobooks: yes or no?

Okay, confession time. I've never listened to an audiobook.  I just can't get hooked in the same as when I'm physically reading a book. If you leave recommendation below maybe I'll find one that hooks me.

Do you judge a book by its cover?

Yes! Whoever says they don't is lying because we all do.

Book to Movie or Book to TV?

TV. That way the plot can be developed better and they don't have to cut out as many things.

A movie or TV show you preferred more?

P.S I Love You. I love both the book and the movie but I have happier memories of the movie than the book.

Series of stand-alones?

For contemporaries, stand-alones. Otherwise, series.

What is the last book you bought? And the last book you read?

Let me know in the comments below?

And until next time, keep reading!

The most beautiful bookish places I know

There are some beautiful book havens in the world and obviously they are all miles away from me. This week is sort of like a bucket list for me, of all the places I want to go when I have enough time (and money). The majority of these placces are in Europe so maybe I'll plan an epic road trip and visit them all one summer.

Libreria Acqua Alta in Venice, Italy

My family actually went here last year, but I was still in school so I didn't get to go. The idea of a floating bookshop is magical and the decorations are all nautical so it looks like you are inside a boat. My favourite picture from this shop is the one of the boat that is full of books of all shapes and sizes, which is a book lovers dream (or at least my dream). Sometimes stray cats wander in off the streets so you might get to see a fluffy friend when you go there.

Boekhandel Dominicanen (Polare Maastricht) in Maastricht, The Netherlands

I actually only live about an hour away from this  bookshop so I could very easily get here. The book shop itself isn't spectacular, especially not for English readers, but the building itself is gorgeous. The church is a Medieval Dominican church that has been converted into a bookshop and the beautiful, swooping arches are enough to distract anyone form the books.

Shakespeare and Company in Paris, France

Arguably the most famous bookshop in Paris, I've always dreamt of visiting this bookshop. It looks like the definition of organised chaos, utterly beautiful but also frantic. One day I'm going to live in Paris and spend as much time as possible visiting this bookshop.

Word on the Water in London, England

This bookshop is a lovely 1920s Dutch barge that floats around the Thames all year round. Apparently there is a wood burning stove for the winter months which is a) dangerous b) absolutely adorable. I'll have to hunt it down next time I'm in London and have a look around.

Cărturești Carusel Bookstore in Bucharest, Romania

This is the fanciest bookshop I think I have ever seen, with ornate staircases and white...everything. It looks clean, fancy and modern with light pouring in from the ceiling windows that cover the roof. I think I'd be intimidated by how many books are held in this shop.

Livraria Lello in Porto, Portugal

I understand why JKR used this bookshop as inspiration for Harry Potter because it is the most beautiful place I have ever seen. It is this fancy place that has beautiful staircases, lots of dark wood everywhere, and ceiling to floor bookshelves.

Admont Abbey Library in Admont, Austria

So technically Admont Abbey Library is not a bookshop, but it is too beautiful to leave off this list. The ceilings are decorated like the Sistine Chapel with the same extravagant, stunning paintings.

Which of these beautiful bookshops have you been to? Which do you want to go to?

Let me know in the comments below!

And until next time, keep reading!

Autoboyography by Christina Lauren

Autoboyography by Christina Lauren
Release Date: September 12, 2017
Pages: 416
Rating: 💜💜💜💜
Buy it: Amazon | Book Depository

Three years ago, Tanner Scott was nudged  temporarily back into the closet. Now, with one semester of high school to go, Tanner plans to coast through his remaining classes and clear out of Utah. Writing a book in four months sounds simple. Four months is an eternity. It turns out, Tanner is only partly right: four months is a long time. After all, it takes only one second for him to notice Sebastian Brother, the Mormon prodigy who sold his own Seminar novel . And it takes less than a month for Tanner to fall completely in love with him. 


I adored this book. Not only is it GORGEOUS, but it is such a heart-warming story that made me feel so good inside.

Autoboyography is a typical, coming-of-age story, and I am here for it. I loved the fact that everything felt like a 'stereotypical' high school contemporary because the fact that they are both on the spectrum isn't forced on you. Obviously the book does talk about them being gay/bi but it is more an exploration of the Mormon religion and having a relationship when you're young. It was a coming-of-age story that warmed my heart to the core.

I loved the way that the Mormon religion wasn't portrayed as some sort of evil overbearing force. Of course there were moments when the religion seemed (kicking gay children out of their households), but the book also explored the sweeter sides of the Mormon belief system. I knew nothing about the Mormons before reading this book, apart from the fact that they are very strict and very religious, but after reading Autoboyography I just wanted to learn more and more about the Mormons. I don't know how accurate the representation in this book was (I can't remember if it is own voices or not), but every topic that was 'explored' in this novel seemed explored well.

There was definite insta-love in this book which irked me a little (and is literally the only reason why I gave it 4 stars, not 5). I am all for love at first sight, and think it is one of the cutest things in this world. But when a character won't stop talking about how 'fit' their boyfriend is, I get annoyed. Talk about their personality! Don't be shallow!

Overall I loved this book. It was a cute and beautiful coming-of-age book that had great representation for some under-represented topics. I want everyone to read this book because it filled my heart with so much hope for the world, and I think we need some hope these days.

Illuminae by Amie Kaufman and Jay Kristoff

Illuminae by Amie Kaufman and Jay Kristoff
Release Date: October 20, 2015
Pages: 624
Rating:💜💜
Buy it: Amazon | Book Depository

Kady thought breaking up with Ezra was the worst thing she'd ever been through. That was before her planet was invaded. Now, with enemy fire raining down on them, Kady and Ezra are forced to fight their way onto one of the evacuating craft, with an enemy warship in hot pursuit. A deadly plague has broken out and is mutating, with terrifying results; the fleet's AI, which should be protecting them, may actually be their biggest threat; and nobody in charge will say what's really going on. As Kady plunges into a web of data hacking to get to the truth, it's clear only one person can help her bring it all to light: Ezra. 

I was surprisingly let down by this book. After all the hype that had surrounded it I was expecting an incredible master piece, but I just didn't get find what was so incredible about this book.

This book is  definitely beautiful; anyone could see that. The diagrams and pictures that make up the majority of this book were what kept me reading. I loved the format of the book because it was so different from every other book I ever read. There were interviews, messenger chats, files and logs that had been collected together to make this book and tell the story of what happened on these spaceships. It was different and intriguing and, honestly, the only reason why I picked up the book.

Where this book fell short was with the characters. Personally, I am a character reader. I need to know what they look like, what their dreams are, what they like to eat for breakfast, everything about the character. I just love to be able picture the characters and what they are doing. Even if the book only has a tiny description of what they look like, I'm able to picture their voice talking and it makes my reading experience so much more enjoyable. But with this book, there was none of that. I had no idea what the characters were like, and the little bits of information we did get I didn't like. Both the main characters were whiny and annoying which made me feel detached from them. I wasn't invested in them, and I didn't really care what happened next.

I might be willing to give this book another chance in the future, especially if I listen to the audiobook. I had no problems with the plot of the book, but because I couldn't imagine the characters voices I couldn't enjoy the story.

So there we go. I would recommend that you read this book, but maybe chose the audiobook version over the physical version (or do both, go crazy!).

The Fall Book Tag

It is finally Autumn again and I couldn't be happier. I love Autumn so much, it is colder, cosier and the world just becomes so pretty.

This tag, created by the Bionic Bookworm, is the Fall Book Tag which suggests it is created by someone American. I actually researched why it is Autumn in English and Fall in America, because I'm a word nerd and love to learn (I know, ultimate nerd). In short, autumn and fall were both used in England but because autumn is from Latin and English people spoke Latin for a lot longer than those who lived in America. 

Anyway...onto the tag!

Crisp Fall Leaves - A book that felt fresh and new

I generally read the same style and genre of book (because I'm not very adventurous) but one book that did feel new was  Daughter of Smoke and Bones by Laini Taylor. I don't read fantasy very often because I struggle to stay focused, but this book had me hooked.

Howling Winds - An ending that blew you away

This might not be very original but I'm going to say Clockwork Princess by Cassandra Clare. This book, and indeed the whole series, had so many twists and turns that everything in this book was surprising. I honestly was expecting the ending that came with this book and I spent a solid fortnight getting over the ending.

Comfy sweater - A book that gave you warm, fuzzy feelings

To All The Boys I Loved Before by Jenny Han is the warmest and fuzziest book I've ever read. Although Harry Potter makes me feel warm and fuzzy, TATBILB is loveliness in a book.

Bright colours - A book cover with yellow, red or orange on it

The most obvious book for this one is Illuminae by Amie Kaufman and Jay Kristoff. It has all three of these colours on it and does scream autumn. Although the story doesn't have anything to do with autumn, being set predominantly in space, it is all the colours of autumn.

Leaf Fight - A book with non-stop action

Definitely The Sign of One by Eugene Lambert, the one book series I can't stop raving about. This whole series is jammed full of action and adventure which kept me gripped to the very end.

Pumpkin Spice - Your most anticipated read

I don't have too many new releases on my radar at the moment but one that I am very excited about is Broken Things by Lauren Oliver. I love Lauren Oliver's writing style and this book sounds so intriguing. I've been really into mystery books at the moment so this is right up my alley.

Which books remind you of Autumn? Which genre do you read the most at this time? 

Let me know in the comments below!

And until next time, keep reading!

Books that take up too much space on my shelf

Top Ten Tuesday: Longest Books I’ve Ever Read

I don't read long books very often, mainly because I love sitting down and reading a book in one sitting (although they do also intimidate me a little). Another problem I have with long books is the fact that I'm a chapter reader: I read one chapter, do some work, then read another chapter until I've done all my work. Longer books mean longer chapters and that just doesn't work for me.

HOWEVER, I have read a couple of long books in my life. Most of these books took me weeks to read and still intimidate me, even though I've read them. I still can't believe I've actually read them, and can't imagine ever reading them again.

The Harry Potter series by J.K. Rowling

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Total page count: 4,911

This book series is famous for being incredibly long, with the longest book being 870 pages (Order of the Phoenix). Surprisingly enough this book is actually my favourite book of the entire series, even though it is the longest. And even though the series is 4,911 pages in total I've read it 5 times in my life. I guess that is just the magic of Harry Potter.

Eclipse by Stephanie Meyer 

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Total page count: 629

The third, and arguably best, book in the Twilight series is actually a lot longer than I remembered. The book series was actually fairly good up until the fourth book, so I guess you could say that this book was Stephanie Meyer's last triumph. 

Dreams of Gods and Monster by Laini Taylor

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Total page count: 613

This series killed me. I read the entire thing in two weeks, which was far too fast I'll admit, but I couldn't put it down. I don't often read fantasy but this was entirely captivating. The funniest thing is that now I look at this and can only feel dread at how long it is. I don't know how long it would take me to read it now, but it is definitely going to be longer than two weeks!

Illuminae by Amie Kaufmann
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Total page count: 608

I didn't actually enjoy this book when I read it. I felt awful about disliking this book when everyone else was raving about it but I just couldn't get into the story. It was so long and the writing style was so different from what I'm used to that I ended up getting bored. I guess this is what happens when you go into a book with such high expectations.

The House of Hades by Rick Riordan
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Total page count: 597

I will read literally any Rick Riordan no matter how long it is. I remember reading this book, putting it down, and wishing it was longer. It was over too fast and I wasn't prepared for the story to end. Maybe it is just Rick's utterly captivating writing style that kept me hooked, or maybe it is my total adoration for these book characters that kept me reading; either way I loved the story.

Hunger by Michael Grant
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Total page count: 590

I don't know whether I talk about this series enough on here but it my favourite series in the world. My first YA series and my first dystopian...anything. It is one of the only series I've read where I had to wait for the next book to be released before I could read it and it was absolute torture. Surprisingly the second book in this series was the longest, which (in my mind) makes no sense.

The Book Thief by Markus Zusak
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Total page count: 584

This book! This book! It may be long but it only takes one page to destroy you. I loved this book when I read it about 4 years ago, and ever since then I've wanted to re-read it. When you look at this book it really doesn't feel like it is almost 600 pages long, but I guess it has very thin pages that makes it this long.

What is  the longest book you've ever read? Which book on your shelf is the longest?
Let me know in the comments below!

And until next time, keep reading!